Thursday, September 29

Without fear

She laughs without fear of the future...

How often do you find yourself laughing without fear of the future? Fear of anything? Career, finances, relationships, children, and on and on and on.

I'll be the first to admit that I fail at this, a lot. I have found that I am driven a lot by fear. Fear of failure, fear of the unknown, fear of the what ifs.

Fear -- it's not a very pretty word.

When I think of the woman portrayed here in Proverbs 31, my heart resonates to be that woman. To be clothed with strength and dignity, to laugh without fear of the future, to be wise, to be kind, to be a blessing to others. My heart desires to be this kind of woman.

The good news is I think it's an attainable goal. I think it's a process and I think that with God's power and grace it is attainable. I often think that I can accomplish this sort of feat now. That if I do this or that, then I will be like the Proverbs 31 woman. Truth is, that is not true. I have to remind myself that it is a process and that it may take my whole life to continue to strive to be like this woman.

I've been intentionally working on letting go of my fears and trusting. I think in my life fear is used to enable me, to keep me in a place of stagnant. To keep me from attaining my potential. But if I let go of the fear, surrender and trust, I'm sure I'll find that beautiful freedom.

It's hard to retrain your mind after years of a certain way of thinking. But with God all things are possible. This is my truth and hope.

It's been a long week. Lots of traveling for work. I am so looking forward to the weekend. My brother and his beautiful fiance are coming for a visit. There are plans of pumpkin patches, grilling out, relaxation and lots of laughter. I can't to come.